I. AM. GETTING. BACK. ON. TRACK.

PERIOD!!!!

No more non-sense from me.

No more un-healthy snacks.
No more being lazy.
No more excuses.

I am only cheating myself.

I am only a little over half way to my goal. I need to stop backsliding out of the good habits I have gotten myself into. From this moment on I am getting back on track.

Shout Out

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Tuesday!

I really want to give a shout out to a fellow blogger that has been a very good friend to me lately. Kellie is a very smart and caring woman and I thing she rocks!!!

Nothing very exciting to report on the weight loss front. I've gotten out of the habit of waking up early to workout but I've been faithfully going to the gym after work! This weekend I did things around my parents house (i.e. cleaning, mowing the lawn and washing the dogs) in honor of my Mom for Mothers Day! I got a little bit of sun and some exercise!

I have recently fallen back into love with Diet Snapple Peach Iced Tea. Im not supposed to drink caffeine but I don't think the drink contains a lot because Im never jittery or hyper like I get with Diet coke.

MIA

I am so sorry for being MIA for such a long time.

Before yesterday I hadnt stepped foot into a Golds Gym in about two weeks! I had no real clue where my weight was at and I was feeling pretty unmotivated. Slacking on workout seemed to allow me to slack on my eating habits so I had convinced myself I had gained at least 5lbs.

Well yesterday after work I went to spin class and weighted in at 194.6lbs!!! I couldn't believe it!

I wanted to get up this morning to go swimming in the hotel pool before work but I couldnt make myself get up. I WILL be going to the gym after work tonight to lift.

My goal for May is simple. I want to lose 5.6lbs! I want to be at 189 for June. I think it will be a challenge and by no means do I think I can achieve this on the current path that I am going on. To achieve this goal I know I need to work out and eat healthy. I really need to watch my snacking habits. Once I start eating it's really hard to stop.

Slipping..

This weekend was my move and let me tell you it was an exhausting experience. I have bruises all up and down my legs (Im not the most graceful person) and sore muscles all over the place.

I haven't been to the gym in what feels like two weeks. I am going to go tonight!!! I am going to go tonight! (sorry I had to say it twice) I really need to get a routine back in my life.

I am going to be traveling for work from now out. I'll work in the DC area and spend my weekends in Virginia Beach. I have a feeling it's going to be exhausting but it's a pay check for right now. I am still actively looking for work in Virginia Beach but only time will tell what I'll be doing in a week, or month from now.

Im going to try not to complain so much in this blog anymore. I really want to focus on finding new tips and incentives for being active and losing weight.

I'll try to post my goals for the month later tonight!

Exercise....what is that?!?!

So I've been a bit under the weather all week and to avoid getting "Sick" I've been taking it easy. I've been sleeping in and loving it. A few days this week I went to the gym at night but the past three days have been exercise free. Oh well!

I am going to spend my weekend cleaning and packing. I want all of my stuff besides my bed, sheets, some towels and a few clothes packed up by Thursday night.

I am going to see a movie tonight with my girlfriends and I am going to try to avoid Junior Mints! They are my kryptonite.

Free Coach....count me in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is way too good to pass up!

Not every day do you read about a blogger giving away a free Coach purse!

My day in as few words as possible.

Deadline at work, sore throat, tired, too much food for lunch.

I will be so happy when today is over!

Party Foul

My interview on Friday went well. I left about 80% confident that they loved me but I still haven't heard anything. I'll let you know if I do!

Before I headed home I got a call from my roommate saying she had headed down to our alma mater for a big weekend celebration. She convinced me to spend the weekend there so on a whim I drove down. I had sooooo much fun.

Even though I was a good 5-8 years older that the other people there it was a good time. I didn't work out but I tried to eat as healthy as possible. I broke one of my April challenge goals but I will try to make it up this week by not having any alcoholic beverages!!

In other news: It breaks my heart to read about the shooting at Virginia Tech. As a resident of Virginia and having so many friends that have attended Virginia Tech it is hard for me to imagine how this kind of thing can happen. My thoughts and prayers go out to the family, friends, students, professors, residents of this community. All I can hope for is that for a tragedy like this to bring these people together and remember those who lost their lives.

Thank you

I really want to thank everyone who has been so supportive the past few weeks. It warms my heart to get such nice comments from people I have never met in person. I know having the support from everyone over at 2007 Challenge has really helped me!!!

I am leaving tonight to head down to Virginia Beach for my interview tomorrow. I don't know if I will have time to post but I promise to provide an update on Monday.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

The good, the bad, and the move

The Good:
I weighed in at 199.8 yesterday :)
I am eating lots of fruits and veggies
I have officially become a regular size 16, not a woman's 16

The Bad:
I am VERY unmotivated to work out
I am hungry all the time - although my snacks are healthy I still feel like I am eating a lot of food
I have two pairs of dress pants that fit me and no money to spend on new clothes

The Move:
I am moving to Virginia Beach! I quit my job, I got an apartment and I am moving to Va Beach at the end of this month. I do NOT have another job lined up (although I have an interview on Friday!! Wish me luck). I feel like my whole life is about to change and I am scared to death.

What if I start eating crap again after I move?
What if I don't work out?
What if I wake up and weigh 289lbs again?
What if I cannot get a job?
What if I am moving for the wrong reasons?

blah...

I have been in such a blah mood lately. There are so many changes going on in my life right now that nothing seems to be registering. I am both scared and excited all at the same time and it's making me feel very indifferent about everything.

So tonight I have decided I need some "Me" time....so of course I am going shopping :) I love to shop alone. I don't know if it's because I was always too shy to shop with my friends because they never had to go to the big girl stores but I love to walk around the mall all by myself. Tonight I am going to Ikea, Old Navy and maybe Macy's.

In other news, I weighed in at 200.0 the other day at the gym. Granted it was EARLY in the morning, no food in my stomach and I had no pants or shoes on but it was still 200.0. I am hoping to see that 2 go away next week :)

April Challenge

I cannot belive it's April already! I am pumped. The warm weather and sun shine has motivated me.

I am going to steal one of my goals from Morgan this month :) I hope you don't mind!

April Goals:
Limit my alcoholic beverages to three a week.
Run 3 miles each week.

The first one is going to be pretty hard for me but I am committed to make it work. The second one shouldn't be a problem at all considering I didn't really struggle to get it done in March.

I really want to see a loss of at least 5lbs this month. I will do my official weigh in tomorrow to get myself started.

Good luck to all the Challengers this month! I'm excited to find out my partner(s) will be :)

Another milestone

Guess what I did last night????

I ran 3.1 miles and NOT on a treadmill. I continuously ran those 3.1 miles outside yesterday after work. I did have to take a few breaks at cross walks but I did it. This is not something I could have even come close to doing last summer! I felt like a million bucks when I got home!

However, I did get a nasty blister on my big toe. I think it was because I had thick socks on.

My march challenge was a success :)

Tight squeeze

One of my biggest nightmares when I was 'fatter' was trying to ride a roller coaster and not fitting into the seat. About three years ago a group of my girlfriends headed to Kings Dominion.

I had butterflies in my stomach on the way down to the amusement park. To be honest the only reason I went is because I wasn't the only fat girl. One of my friends I thought was about the same size as me, so I figured I would always let her go first and then I would know if I could fit. I would painfully analyze all the riders in line to see if there was anyone my size or larger.

We had gone on a few of the rides that day (all of which I fit) and headed over to the water park where I could relax. I knew I could fit in the pool :) Then we decided to do one more thrill ride before we went home. The wait in line was about two hours long and I did everything in my power to convince my friends to leave.

Faithfully I stood in line and silently had an anxiety attack. I knew the was a pretty dangerous ride so I knew the bars were gonna be tight. Sure enough we go up to the front of the line. I sat down....the bar didn't come down enough....one of the ride workers came over and pushed...another guy came over and PUSHED. After a minute or two the guys were like sorry ma'am we are going to have to ask you to leave.

I was crushed!!! From that day on I vowed to lose weight. Of course that feeling didn't last for very long but I have never forgotten that day. I knew I would never EVER go back unless I lost weight!!

Now a days I've started wondering if I should give it another shot. I love roller coasters and I'm curious to see how difficult or easy it would be to fit on one now. If only they gave you size charts online :)

Has this ever happened to anyone else?

I just have to get this off my chest....

My co-worker who shares the cubicle next to mine has played the same song over and over and over since lunch. I can't tell what song it is but it's got the most annoying rhythm EVER.

I know I should just say something to him but it's his birthday. No matter how annoying it is to me I'll let him slide today. However if you don't hear from me in a while it's cause I've lost my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just kidding.....Only 30mins more till the weekend :)

Thank goodness it's Friday

I havent posted in a while because I haven't had much to say.

Lately I've been on an emotional roller coaster. Sometimes I feel great about life and sometimes I feel like I just want to throw the towel in. I am taking things one day at a time.

I am hovering around 204lbs. Some days I am 1lb down then I am 1lbs up. I have been letting myself go on my diet on the weekends and I know that is the problem. Im not stressing out about this because I know the big picture.

Yesterday I bought this skirt at Old Navy:
I have NEVER purchased a jean mini skirt before. I went into Old Navy with the intention to buy a jean skirt. I was bold and picked up a size 16 and headed to the dressing room. To my surprise it fit and wasnt skin tight. YAY!!! But I have to say this skirt is WAY out of my comfort zone. I have always hated my legs but I have noticed a huge change in them in the past couple of months. I can see my calf muscles and my ankles! My thighs are still more than desired but oh well. I'm not sure if I'm comfortable enough with my body to wear this outside yet but I am going to work on it. I wore it around the house last night and ask my roommate her opinion about 6 million times.


Nothing really exciting going on this weekend. I am planning on going to two spin classes back to back tomorrow morning. I have never done this before but there are a lot of people that do. So I'll be spinning my heart out tomorrow morning. Let's hope I can make it :)

Have a wonderful weekend!

Update: I almost forgot! I met my weekly challenge yesterday with a 4 mile run. I felt GREAT for the first 2 miles and then took a break and it was a struggle to get going again. I was happy when I was finished!

Im still here

I haven't posted in a while but things have been a little crazy.

I have good and bad news.

Good news:
I weighted in at 202.6lbs this morning....I am soooooo freaking close :)
I ran over three miles this morning. I dont remember the exact amount because I walked a little at the end.

Bad news:
I am breaking up with my boyfriend this weekend for far too many reasons. It's going to be hard but I know it's for the best. Trust me I wont turn to Ben & Jerry for comfort!!

If I dont post for the rest of the week I wouldnt be surprised. I'll definitely try to check in on Monday though.

This is a test

Yesterday was certainly a test of my body, mind and soul. I hate to be so vague but I was faced with a few personal problems. There have been times in my life when I would be depressed or upset I would turn to food. I could polish off an entire box of cereal or I would want 4 grilled cheese sandwiches.

Yesterday was one of those days where I wanted comfort...but this time I didnt go to food. Sure, I WANTED to eat bad things but I told myself I've worked way too hard to get to where I am. I found comfort in myself and in my friends. I am so thankful for the people I have in my life and the strenght and self-confidence that I have gained in the past year.

Today should be a much better day! The only thing is that I HATE what I am wearing. I have on a button down dress shirt that is WAY too big for me. I look like a kite walking down the hall way with my shirt flapping in the wind. Oh well....This shirt will be retired after today.

PS....I finished my 3 miles for the week this morning :)

Weekend recap

First off I would like to thank everyone for being so encouraging about my March challenge! It has definitely made a difference to get me motivated.

My weekend was pretty relaxing. I hung out with my roommate most of the time and we were pretty low key. Friday we had dinner and a movie. If you were thinking about seeing Black Snake Moan let me know because I would tell you to wait till video! Saturday I worked out for 2 hours!!! It was wonderful. I did Body Step then Body Pump. My body was stepped and pumped out after that.

Food wise I did pretty good till my roommate decided to make oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. They were great with a glass of milk.

My official weigh in on Friday was 206.6. I couldn't be more excited about being this close to the 100's. I think it will take me a little over a monthly but I hope to be right at or under 199 by the end of April.

This morning I ran two miles on the treadmill at the gym. I am almost at my weekly goal!!

Have a great Monday guys!

March Challenge

I have decided to participate in the March Challenge this month. Most everyone in the group has been participating since January but they accept new members at the beginning of each month.

My goal for this month is to run 3 miles a week. I know that isnt much but I really want to make running a part of my workout routine. I'm getting too comfortable with the elliptical machine so I need to mix it up. Since I've seen good results from doing interval training when I run on the tread mill I usually walk for 2 mins then run for 8 mins and so on and so on till I reach my total time.

One of my ultimate goals is to run a half marathon. I know there is no way I could do it any time soon but eventually I know I could.

Happy March everyone!